Things I don't understand

When I come to a blank in creativity, I make lists.
This is what came of today's creative block.

Things I will NEVER understand.

1. Turtle. Neck. Sweaters.

2. Going to Panera for something other than Broccoli Cheddar Soup.

3. There are people who exist that do not wish to have the capability of flying.

4. God's thoughts on Mosquitos

5. People who think they can choose their own Nickname.

6. Dots - the candy.

7. Saunas

8. The wal-mart check out system.

9. Racism

10. Bleaching parts of your body that outside of intense inspection will never be seen.


I will expand further on these points at a later date.

Today

I could write about how poorly I have behaved over the last 3 months.
But I'd rather just talk about today.

Today - I want to start over.
Today - I want to be whole.
Today - I want to feel better.
Today - I want to be held accountable.
Today - I am desperate for friendships of substance.
Today - I need a mentor.
Today - I want to be pushed outside my comfort zone.
Today - I am annoyed and frustrated with my inability to eat responsibly.


Today - I ate 2 times as much as I should have.
Today - I will intend to go to the gym but instead I will cry on my bed and look at the disaster around me and feel overwhelmed and refuse help.

Today - I don't know what to do.
Today - I am honest and I admit I have a problem and I don't know how to deal with it.